Well the Hebrew day of Judgement is tommorow

                                                       Okay today I'm calling people out on their stuff.
I'll start with the American people there are no jobs because nobody wants to pay you the amount you need to maintain the lifestyle you expect. Instead Some other assholes will do what the big assholes need for less  a three bedroom and two bath with a few cars and a white picket fence. So The big assholes decided to ship all the jobs out because they didn't want to raise wages, and even if they did raise wages. It wouldn't really work because than everything would inflate because the guy who harvest's the raw materials is gonna wan't more money just like the guy who manufactures said product so the guy who buys the said product is going to have to work more, to pay the guy out there harvesting and the guy inside building said product, and because the guy buying want's said product the guy paying him will have to pay him more so he can have said product.

                                                        This little circle has now gone global because now everyone has started to live better. So now everyone is trying to keep up with the Jones's in other words the B.R.I.I.C. nations have a middle class now. So now they need more service based jobs and now they are sending manufacturing jobs overseas too. Now another group of nations can start developing and  eventually become an inflated consumer nation too.
                                                        This is capitalism this is how it works. Eventually in order to re-sett the whole thing things have to fall apart in other words things have to crash. After things crash everyone or most people go broke. After that wages go down and so do living standards. after That industry develops again and living standards rise again. This is what I would like to call a capitol reset in other words The natural course of capitalism. It's the only way because we no longer hold the dollar to a gold or silver standard.

                                                         Moving on now Most Democrats or Republicans
You guys are a bunch of fucking Hippocrates. You stand around beating a drum about helping out the less fortunate and all that good stuff, but when it comes down to it,......you would rather shirk the responsibility or mitzva if you would rather. Why because well the government or someone else should do it. Well if thats really the case and everybody else should do it than you need to shut the fuck up because nobody likes a guy who talks but doesn't get dirty with the rest of us.  In other words if you assholes really loved America you wouldn't play king of the hill. It would be more important for you to work together so our nation could prosper and move forward. If you call yourself a democrat or a republican and you drive green cars or you shoot guns and support doing business  in America props if you just wanna have control than maybe you should just stop.
                                                     
                                                         Moving on Big ass Oil companies
Who the fuck are you to hold back the rest of humanity so you can keep selling your product? You have the money make the investments buy the technologies. Or should we keep polluting and destroying the planet so our children will be left with nothing. Maybe it's time to divest from the middle east, maybe it's time to not have a pillar of the global economy tied to such a volatile area. Or do you relish the fact that the simple man or unfortunate sons send their children there to keep the oil pumping, Or to keep the gas flowing.

                                                         Moving on   Pharmaceutical Corporations and Government collaboration. Hi you think I wouldn't mention you or your nasty little deeds huh. Flashback 1994
a new drug just came out on the market you bastards collaborated together and tested these medications on the children of the poor. So now there are people with neurological damage"why I walk funny why I twich sometimes ", gynecomastia or man boobs, higher cholesterol, and higher blood pressure. You guys are responsible for damage done to many many people. You guys are responsible for many many years taken off of peoples lives. You put chemicals on developing brains which affected the development of these brains permanently. You extorted mothers into poisoning there own children because if they didn't you would take away the children and poison them your selves.

You poisoned women by overloading their system with synthetic estrogen. Your oppression of the womb and the female sexuality has resulted in weight gain, Depression, lowered sex drive and an increased rate of cancer
I guess only someone evil could sit back and let these things happen to women and children.


                                                          Moving on The F.D.A.
aside from letting the pharma assholes destroy our population, you let the cornballs do it too with high fructose corn syrup which dissolved the liver. Wow you assholes should have put a warning out there about the corn syrup. Oh no you guys on on the lobbies pay roll. The news mongers fear about a country that will be 44 percent obese in the next 7 years. I reckon we started on that whole movement in 1977 when we made it cost prohibitive to use sucrose sugar. Well you have served the country well I applaud you corn farmers making their money drug company's and the medical industry making their money and well with obesity comes a higher mortality rate so you got the Funeral industry making their money. oh and of course the whole world really loves the stereotype of the fat American.

                                                           I guess I had to say all of that because Yom Kippur is coming
and I guess being a part of G-d or one of the facets on the Diamond I.E. everything which in reality is G-d  makes me feel that I can pass these judgments.

                                                           So think about these things and talk about them
who knows maybe one of the above mentioned Assholes will change their ways hell myself included in that list  

                                                           If you got any doubts about my claims don't be lazy empower yourself and educate yourself, hell maybe you will prove me wrong

                                         

No dice kid

                                                                   Well like most of the things I plan this one was a loss.
It seemed like such a win too, hey how the hell was I supposed to know they forgot to send my gaurd card application to Sacramento. I wasn't and now I'm supposed to go find a Job anywhere I guess because my ace was held in the wrong place.  It kinda pisses me off still though. Maybe the bruja was right.

                                                                    So far I have absolutely nothing just half of things.
My brother said he would teach me to drive well now I reckon sitting at his friends house and watching movies really taught me how to parallel park. I love it people always say sure kid I'll help you out, than when I come to turn in my voucher it's just a no dice kid situation.  

                                                                     I'm so tired of needing other people it seems every time I try to make something or gain some sort of empowerment I get screwed. So here I am again woe is me woe is I or oy vays mir if you prefer it that way.  Well thanks for reading my complaints I'm going to go look for work.


                                                                       

                                                                       

Second thoughts

                                                                      So I have been hanging out with my mom and my little brother lately.  I told my mom a while ago on the phone she said she was cool with it......well, now there are a bunch of second thoughts. I think she has rescinded her pass.

                                                                      Oh well I've explained it to her like four times already, but she keeps trying to find some stupid trigger or ulterior reason as to why I do what I do. I have decided to just give up on explaining to her I have always felt this way. Since well since I could remember, weather I was only wearing dress's at the dress up station in preschool, or fantasizing about being a girl when I would lay in my bed at night after school. Well she doesn't believe me and she has decided to white wash my life.

                                                                    I really don't give a fuck what she thinks about it anymore though. Like I said I ran out of fuck awhile ago. Honestly since I stopped fighting these feelings and just started rolling with them I have been allot less angry allot less stressed out, Like it's been shown in generations past. People don't like convention being messed with, but  feel like saying this to convention"fuck you convention fuck you in your repressive ass I hope you fucking die" anyhow now that I got that out the way I'm gonna go practice driving so I'll write again some time.

Oh and a shout out to Carla from the hot springs last night I didn't tell you this to your face but I like your tits they were very nice and I dozed off thinking about them last night, and really I hope things work out for you in Switzerland.

Today I conquered the Five

 Last night my brother came over to pick me up.

We spent three hours reminiscing about our child hood together. 

All The acts of delinquency, all the beatings all The good times.

It was great but than it made me miss all the years we were separated.

Than today my brother let me drive his jeep all the way back to Paso on the five.

I'm glad to say I owned that highway today it was the first time I drove on the highway.

It was the first time I drove in traffic without a instructor. Than I got to drive on one the old country roads.

It was beautiful all the majestic oak trees and the vineyards flanking the bends. 

This was a highlight of this last month. 

......But it doesn't justify the fact that my brother confided what I confided with him 

to other people. People who confided it to even more people. 

Well now I guess I have been dragged out of the closet. 

Not that I was really hiding it anyways. I don't know how wearing women's clothes makes someone a "fag".

As far as I understand things, a person is a homosexual 

if he likes to be sexually or romantically involved with other men. 

I tried it a few times but  I can honestly say it's not something I go out looking for.

It's not something I think I would do again.  

But fuck it I guess If these people wanna play smear the queer I'll just play along.

It will make things really interesting when they find out they assumed wrong. 

either way I don't have time to be stopped by other peoples bullshit.

so Soon enough I will be driving a truck and I will have  drivers license. 

Those things will empower me, and they will make it easier to get the affections of  

my rocker girl who is nutritious auspicious delicious.

So until than believe what you want 

I'm just stating it now after this I won't address the issue again.

After this every any damn shit fuck or drops of piss I have won't be wasted on your assumptions. 

Election Time

So it's nearly election time

                              It's time for America to pick a President. I understand many people think that 

the popular vote decides the deal, I understand many people are die hard for their party. 

Honestly to me it makes no sense. If your a republican than you want a guy who is really good at hiding his money.   If your a democrat your voting for a guy who sent more soldiers to Afghanistan. 

                          This election should focus solely on domestic policy on promoting Job production,and making America gear itself toward a future with better education and the like. 

I like Obama's stance on moving to another fuel source and going green. I love the idea of cheaper education, but to say by making one percent of the population pay a higher percentage of tax than everyone else seems kind of stupid. Especially if that one percent is the guy who has the resources to open factories  and make jobs. Especially if that one percent is the guy who can invest his money into other people's Ideas and programs. 

                          On the other hand I find Romney hypocritical. He can sit on the podium with a straight face 

and tell America yes Massachusetts can have socialist medicine programs and socialist medical insurance, but the rest of America can't. I also can't stomach how good he is at hiding his money.  

                           I digress both of these guys are politicians and what I have learned about those kind of people is....... you can't trust them, and even though they are supposed to work together for the little people they don't. Instead you have two parties that give give nothing for their supporters. Instead you have two groups of people with money and power fighting with each other to be king of the hill. 

Instead of caring about the man In the street they care about their man in the seat. 

                            I'm just saying if things were right than all these lobbyists wouldn't have a place 

on the hill, All these politicians wouldn't be fighting for absolute control they would be fighting to better America to keep her strong to keep her moving forward. I think this is something the American people should demand from their public servants...or elected leaders however you decide to call them.

Walla Karasho

           

                                       Walla Karasho

                                    Things are great I just completed my security guard card course, and I got my drivers permit. So I'm moving forward with less resistance, and of course I'm hitting up every office that gives out free stuff.
"if your not waking up in the morning to screw the system, than I don't know what your waking up for"

I have been having interesting times too. Weather it's hanging out in north long beach and getting a hood pass.
Just for the record my hood pass is irrevocable because well the hood is where I learned to walk and talk it was where my first conscious or coherent moment was held. Of course I have been hitting up the strip clubs too because......I love dem strippers yeah I love dem strippers, and If your a feminist and you got a problem with it... shut the fuck up it's a fair deal and its consensual and if the Dancer has a problem with the way she makes her money all she has to do is  stop dancing and find another job.

 I have also grown a bigger pair hitting up department stores to by my fem clothes and walking over to the men's dressing room with them.  Or waiting in line at the rite aid with a bunch of make up. Lets just say it doesn't mean I'm a pussy, It means I don't give a damn. I just do what I want to. I do what feels good for me, without being concerned about conventional norms or other peoples thoughts or words.

                               I also went to my first event every Tuesday is T-girl Tuesday  at hamburger Mary's
so I hit it up. It was fun I think it will  be better once I dress up and dance. There of course that will be my reward after I get a car and my own place.

                               
                               Why are things going so good?you might ask...well I went to see a bruja the j is a h
it means witch in Spanish she read my palms and pretty much described my personality and my life.
Than she described my pain of me not doing or being what I want, she described all the anxiety that came with it. Well now I see it's not worth living my life if I cant enjoy it without fear or what ever.

                                The Bruja even spoke further about a curse put on me and my parents by someone in the family. I didn't know I had occultist's in the family. Still I find it hard to believe someone put a curse on me. Either way Things have started to get better.

                              I have decided to go forward with the nurse Ideal, but not for the money.
I want to do it so I can be in a position to help people and so I can promote the ideals of preventative medicine. I decided this when I saw a man on the street. He was obese and his legs were rotting off. I saw he was homeless and he was using botanica or bruja oils to heal himself. It made me wan't to cry. It made me think about one of my friends who recently passed on from diabetes. I guess my only way of exacting vengeance is through the medical field.

                                       Every person I  help will be another victory against the corn lobby with thier poisonous high fructose corn syrup, every woman I recommend a book too will be a victory against the medical industry that
poisons them with their cancer causing overdosing, and their acts of repressing the womb.
Every person I help will be a victory for me and my goal of helping humanity and Loving my G-d because in the end we are all facets of one G-d we are all a part of each other we are all just G-d condensed to manifest a noun, and Yes even strippers and people who love them are a part of G-d so peace.